One Sided

It’s already a mistake

To even begin with

Yet we both took the risk

Not knowing where it would lead

I opened up to you

Your doors are shut for me

I gave my everything

You took what’s left of me

Often times I just wish

That you would make me feel

A bit important to you

And what we have is real

Still nothing has changed

Everything stayed the same

I’ve been patient and hopeful

But to you it’s just a game

Maybe things will get better

I’m giving us a chance

But our song is ending

This could be our final dance

You don’t really love me

You never even cared

So I just closed my eyes

To feelings you didn’t spared

You once told me that

We need some time apart

But life without each other

That would be a better start

We need to break up

That’s what I’ve decided

This ain’t going to work

It’s just so one sided

Inside My Heart

When darkness spreads over the sky

and the birds stop chirping from above...

When everything has quiet down

and all I hear is the ticking of the clock...

Just before I rest my weary eyes

I clasp my hands and bow my head...

I whisper to God my simple prayer

and thank Him for placing you

inside my heart.

Your Tears

Birthdays are suppose to be a time for celebration but for you, on your very day, it was filled with sadness and tears. If only I could wipe your tears, you know I would. If only I can make you smile, you know I would. If only I could chase away those sadness, you know I would.

You did laugh. You did smile. But your eyes can't hide those pain in your heart. I really wanted to make your day special but you never gave me the chance. I really wished I have done something to cheer you up.

You were running inside my head that day. I can't help it but to think of you. I was wondering if you were doing okay. I was hoping that you were celebrating your birthday.

All I'm trying to say is that I'm just here waiting for... waiting for you to allow me to wipe away those tears.

Stellar

by: aymtorn

Not long time ago, you came into my life
But it felt like I've known you forever.
And the moment I touched your hand
I just know I will fall in love with you.

No palette of shades can paint my heart
Nor amount of words can ever describe
How madly, deeply in love I am with you.
I will trade anything just to see you smile.

You're the best thing that ever happened to me
And I don't want to live my life without you.
I don't care what will tomorrow bring
As long as you are there beside me.

I am sorry if at times we don't get along
And I'm sorry if at times I make you sad.
It's just that sometimes I don't feel
I am that important to you at all.

But I can never stop myself dreaming of you.
My care for you will not come to an end.
Know that my feelings for you are true
And I will spend my lifetime in love with you...

Searching for Nothing

aymtorn

The oceans of air I’ve cruised
To unfold all my miseries.
Through the mountains I’ve soared,
To look what’s missing in me.

In the deepest blue sea I dove,
To fill this loneliness in me.
The desolate desert I’ve traveled,
To find quench for my thirst.

Through the blinding sun I stared,
To see if life is worth living.
Over the vast dark sky I gazed,
To know why am I in agony.

My mind flew in a land of nowhere,
To seek answers to my questions.
I’ve searched high and low,
Hoping my emptiness will be filled.

But I know my search is in vain,
For life without you is nothing.

Saturdays

aymtorn

I start my week on Mondays
With a grateful and joyful heart
Because I’ll be seeing your smiles.
They are lovely and enchanting.

But Tuesdays are cloudy gray.
Days are gloomy without you.
My heart is melancholic because
You are no where to be found.

Wednesdays are anticipated.
I get to hear your voice and
Your laughter is like a sweet
Music to my ears – saccharine!

Thursdays are bluer than blue.
The sun doesn’t shine on me.
Days grow long and nights are
Longer without you here beside me.

Fridays have colors everywhere.
I can see rainbows in your eyes.
I drown with it but I can never
Tire myself just gazing at them.

But I love Saturdays the most.
It’s when I can spend time with you.
It’s the time I can be close to you.
Just You and Me and nothing else.

Then I end my week on Sundays
With prayers and hopes that time
Will flyby on days without you
And time will slow down on Saturdays.

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Nothing Else Matters

aymtorn

The smiles we shared…
every laugh we had will always be cherished.
Our walks together…
every stride of it will always be remembered.
The memories we had…
every memory we’ll make will be treasured.

I don’t know what you did to me…
I don’t know what I am to you…
I don't know if I love you that much...
But I do know I’m happy and nothing else matters…
When I’m with you…

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No More

aymtorn

i've tried my best
for us to be together.
find every single way
just to be with you.
but what did you do?
you broke my heart in two.

you've caused so much pain in my heart.
pain that i could barely take.
and now you say you're so sorry.
not all forgiveness leads to a healed relationship.
you want us back to where we were before?
i tell you now...
f#$% y@# i don't want it no more!

You Don't Exist

aymtorn

It has been a while since
you've brought me pain.
'Twas living in sadness,
walking under the rain.

But now I'm healing
and it's almost over.
'Twas very hard and
thought i can't recover.

You've started to
fade in my mind at last.
Nothing to remember
but a thing in the past.

In the chambers of my
heart you ceased to appear.
Nothing for me to feel,
and so i dont have to fear.

Do I love you still?
What's there to ask for?
I can't remember you
'cause you dont exist anymore.

Alone Again

aymtorn

I live in a world
Only I can see,
A place I thought
Where I should be.
But not for long
When I saw you,
I know my realm
Will never be blue.

You entered in
To my emptiness
And filled it with
Your purest caress.
But time flew fast
And I never guessed
The love we have
Will come to a rest.

Now the dreams
That I made for you
Will soon vanish
And never be true.
For I will go back
To where I belong,
Alone again
Without a song.

Death

aymtorn

Death - why do they fear you?
They try to run away from you
even they know they can't escape.
Resistance is futile.

Death - when will you reveal?
I can no longer hold on.
I'm so tired and I need to rest.
Soothe me with your fragrance.

Death - where are you now?
I long to be embraced by you.
Visit me in the night
when everything is calm.
Take me away... forever...