Hybernation

For the past days I feel really tired and lousy. I feel sleepy of the time. Yesterday I slept 12 hours. But instead of feeling refreshed, I still feel weak and very passive. I'm becoming regretful and frustrated. So many thing I wished I've done in my life. So many things I want to be undone.

Right now I want to disappear. Maybe go to a place where no one knows me or sleep for weeks without waking up. But then again everything would still be the same. Not unless I will do something to change things. How can I? I don't have the slightest drive.

So empty. So incomplete. Messed up. Cracked up.