Almost Christmas

A few more days and I'll be spending Christmas all by myself for the 2nd time around. I've been wondering what will I do on that day. I'm pretty sure I can't be with her so I'm still looking for a back up plan. I have a few ideas in mind but no final plans yet. I really want to have a puppy. A pitbull. Yeah, that would be a great gift for myself but I'm not sure if I can afford. But just the thought of it makes me smile already. I wish someone would give me one.

I'm having difficulty in breathing. Must be my asthma or due to lack of sleep. Palpitations. Dizziness. I need to rest now.